A vision for 2010

 It's already three weeks since the beginning of the new year and I'm still busy with creating a vision. I'm not sure how I would like this year to look like. This painting is from the 2nd of January. At that point I could only paint rather then write it down. It looks like an explosion.

Not too bad for a start of a vision.

Today, two weeks after the year had started, the snow is melting. It has been three weeks of snow and now it slowly disappears. It becomes muddy and slippery, reveals the ground underneath. Walt, our snow man is also melting and his scurf looks like he had gone jogging and is all sweating. Later on that evening, I'm sad to say, Walt lost his had. This morning, I found out, looking out the window, he also lost his legs.

For a moment it looks like the winter is over, but I know it's not true. My sister tells me on the phone that in Tel-Aviv it is 24 degrees. I can't imagine it even. Here the grass is ever so green and after the snow it is even greener. Strange, we some how expected it to look grey, like everything else around here. But green it is, and someone even says that we are going to have a spectacular spring. We'll see about that...

Like everybody else in Europe, I also become a bit winterly depressed. Like the rest I also don't get enough vitamin D, and like some Dutch people I go to sun studio to get some artificial light. It does improve the mood, I must say, (at list for the moment).

Some days later

Only few chunks of snow here and there, but most of the ground is revealed. I go on a bike ride with Jayesh. We go on the bike path in the dunes. Few pieces of ice and we loose our balance. It's amazing how Dutch people are doing it. You can see their bike marks on the ice. Courageous people. After being outside I have to eat a lot. I'm amazed to see how body uses so much energy in keeping itself warm. I eat so many times a day.

The days are passing by

I'm not able to write something that worth publishing. I'm a bit disappointed. I had high expectations from this blog. I thought I could publish a post every week. By now it's more then three weeks since my last post. Maybe the title of this post is too demaniding, maybe because I have not a vision yet, and this is what sits on the top of the page. As I'm sitting and writing these words it is snowing again. The last week I have been busy deep cleaning our house. It started as a communal action and I got so inspired so I did it in my office and in my private house. I found out it brought me so much energy and fun. I think my next post will be about cleaning and the art of meditation. Yes! That's it. By now I'll publish this one as it is. I admit it's not the best, but it's part of the process. Here is the song of Morcheeba, carrying this name.

Conclusion:

It is all part of the process. Deep cleaning and throwing things out help me to get in touch with myself, which helps me eventually to create a vision.

It's O.K. that this post is not perfect. The weather is changing all the time, and is also not perfect, and so am I. It is what it is.

Comments

[Sahila Fleur]

thank you sweethart, YOu are a great writer! looking forward to your next one. You inspire me! love, Sahila

[Premdaya]

I can feel in tune with what you write. I feel flowers blossoming inside from the water sinking deep into the earth. I feel evey moment necessary as it is and full of potential joy and richness, everything already there and moving to expression. Great moment and the painting you shared reveals it. Thank you and lot of love!